Rose In My Heart

My name is Tessa, I am eighteen years old. I study in one of universities in Yogyakarta. The campus is far from my house, so I live in boarding house near campus. It is comfortable to living there, because it is cool, clean and calm. Many flowers grow around there, such as: jasmines, roses, orchid, etc.
I like rose flower so much. It is a beautiful flower. It’s not only has beautiful color and smells good, but also it has thorn. Rose usually stands for love. When I falling in love I feel enjoyed with beautiful color and smell good of rose. But, when I was broken heart, I feel hurt by its thorn.
Color of rose has many means. Red rose means love, yellow rose means just friend, etc. I have memory with rose flower.
One day, I knew a boy. He was my senior in my campus. His name was Rudy. First time when I saw him, I though he was an arrogant boy. But when I knew him, he was nice. Rudy was very kind. He helped everybody who needs a help.
For about one month I became his friend, we always sent message each other. We often met in the campus, library or canteen. We had same hobby it was reading comic. We liked it, because it could make our happy and relaxed. Every morning, I sent message to Rudy, I remained him to do the morning pray. Sometimes, he sent message to me at 03.00 a.m., he remained me to take eat when I would fast on Monday and Thursday.
In that time, I didn’t have boyfriend and he didn’t have girlfriend, so we never mind to take a walk, breakfast, lunch or dinner together. But, in my heart, I was afraid if I nearly with him. I was afraid make him disappointed with my condition. Although I was eighteen years old, I didn’t allow have a love affair with boy. So, I was afraid if I until falling in love with him.
Suddenly, Rudy visited me in my boarding house on Saturday night. I surprised. He looked different, he looked so handsome. Rudy and I sit on chairs in the park beside my boarding house. He looked me for a long time. I feel shy.
“Don’t look at me like that!” I said to him, but I didn’t looked his face, I was very shy.
“What a beautiful you are tonight,” he gave me a compliment,
“It’s not your habit. You never say like that previously,” I said, “what your purpose with say it for me?”
He took two flowers from his back. They were yellow rose and red rose. He brought them in front of my face.
“If you love me, take a red rose and I will be your boyfriend,” he commanded me,
“If I take yellow rose?” I asked him,
“I just become your friend, and you must take one of this”
I though for a few minutes, it was my fear since I near him. My choice is my way. After I considered well, I took yellow rose from his hand. He shocked. But, I still smiled to him, he waited my word.
“I couldn’t become your girlfriend, Rudy,” I said carefully, I won’t make hurt his heart.
“Why? You don’t love me?” he asked,
“No…no…no… Not like that,”
“So, why you don’t accept me to become your boyfriend?”
“Because I don’t allow to making relationship with a boy,” I gave my reason,
“Who forbid you to steady?”
“My parents,”
He kept silent and though something.
“I know, your parents are so nice. May be your parents afraid you’ll never study if you steady,”
I happy he could receive my reason. We chatted until 10.00 p.m. because in that time my boarding house would close and Rudy had to leave for his house. Before he left, I hold his hand, I stopped him,
“Are you still my friend, Rud?” I asked him,
“Yes, I am. I always beside you whether or not you love me,” he smiled, “But, I hope you take red rose from my hand in other day,”
I smiled and let his hand. After he left my boarding house, I entered my room. I put yellow rose into the vase. I looked it with remained face of Rudy. I knew I loved him, but I had selected my choice. So, I must move on. May be, in the other day, my parents let me have a love affair with a boy and this flower would be change with red rose and he would become my boyfriend. Who knows?